December 30, 2016

Some words and stuff

It's been an interesting year.

There has been good. There has been bad.

I guess you can't have one without the other.

That kinda sums up my year. There is stuff that I don't want to talk about. Well, I would love to, but I'm just a bit above it. People believe what they want to believe in the end. It pushes me more into myself. I am very much an Other. An outsider. So it's hard for me to be with people. I don't fit in, they don't get me. It's all very awkward.

But one thing I am very excited about is something I finally got myself. No. It's not a horse. But it goes on one.

To be completely honest, I'm afraid I'm losing my positivity. I'm sure it seems like I never have any. I try very hard to keep going. But while I still have happy thoughts and dreams. I just don't want to be with shitty people. And that is all I see 90% of the time. No, maybe they aren't deliberately trying to be shitty. It's just... How it is. However, there are a few people that still make me smile and believe that things are possible. I'll just be a weirdo. On my own. I mean what else is new? 😉

December 10, 2016

Blowin in the Wind

Not much going on. Plotting on how to get a horse down here.

December 03, 2016

To Those Who Made Us

In the life of this blog, I am on my third move. We pretty much move once a year. Not really planned, but it sucks.

Each time we move I purge more and more crap. But I also rediscover stuff. Such as this:

It has to be circa 1995. I mean undeniably mid 90s.

But this was an awesome horse who taught me so much. He was a QH and my trainer's ex grand Prix horse. My sister had even done some jumpers on him. (Jumpers weren't really below 3 foot or for kids where we were and back then).

But I inherited the ride. We did 2'3"-2'6" hunters. He would always add the stride for me. He took care of everything. At the time I knew i was lucky to have a BTDT horse, now I realize how insanely beneficial it was. A horse who listened, but also knew when to know better. A horse that let a learning student work on herself. A horse that enjoyed his job.

Here's to the horses who have made us!

November 24, 2016


What a great day to express gratitude. Grateful will be my goal in a daily sense. To never take for granted the wonderful things in my life. I too often focus on my wants and have-nots, I forget about what I do have. Silly me.

November 23, 2016

Changing Leads

I did go xc schooling recently. It was fun. But I'm so out of shape! I ride only about once or twice a week, and hardly get to jump. I do exercise rides on a client horse and then also school a pony when time affords. I love him, he is so freaking cute.

Perspective, it helps

I totally want to put up all the pictures, but then again, there are only a few. And they all pretty much look the same.

Pick your damn eyes up self
 So yup. That is about the latest. Moving over Thanksgiving, and going to a schooling show. No, not showing, 😢

I hate moving.

November 21, 2016


I erased the old posts. I mean, you can't erase the past, or can you?

I haven't had much to say for a while. I still really don't. I'm tired. Of a lot of things. Perhaps that is why I'm being drawn back in this direction.

I'm not really sure where this will lead, but I suppose that's part of the fun. I miss reading about everyone. The job keeps me away.

But here, I haven't completely lost my sense of humor. Only my mind 🙃